I had disappointed her.
Life is like that sometimes - an anticipated gift disappoints, an opportunity closes, a relationship doesn't work out...
Sometimes the heaviest disappointments come from people we are closest to.
Disappointments whisper words of rejection as they weigh down our hearts. They can leave us feeling hopeless and utterly broken.
There are many ways we can deal with these feelings. We can stuff our disappointment into the deepest part of our souls and try to ignore its gnawing ache. We can put on the mask of an "I don't care" attitude and gloss over the hurt with snappy one-liners. Or we can try to deal with the hurt and get rid of it.
We can begin by asking ourselves if there is anything we can do to change the situation. Sometimes if we want a different outcome, we need to make an adjustment in our own actions or expectations. Maybe this is a learning experience for us.
If there's nothing we can change, we can remind ourselves that good things are waiting for us in the future. In the busyness of life, it is easy to forget that this journey can be a tough one. Life can be disappointing, and sometimes it helps to be realistic about it. It might feel like things will always be bad for us, but that's never the case. Good will eventually cycle around again.
Until then, maybe we just need to cry and get it out of our system. Maybe we need to cry out every ounce of disappointment, so we can find ourselves in a place where we can see things from a new perspective.
I've heard someone say that if everyone put their troubles and disappointments in a circle, we'd look at them and then gladly pick ours back up again. It is better to find peace with what we have than wallow in what we don't.
The weight of disappointment will only keep us down if we let it.