You'll find better ways to cope with your pain. In a few years, even the worst of the pain will subside. You'll smile again. You'll laugh again. Things will be good.
I know you can't understand this right now. You're hurting, and all you can think about is getting relief from the desperate, hopeless feeling that's hounding you. In the middle of the hurt, it's impossible for you to see things as they really are. Listen to me. You are stronger than you think you are. You are going to get through this.
Please don't numb your pain with drugs.
Drugs will never erase those negative thoughts. They'll just hide them for awhile. That's why when the drugs wear off, you'll want to keep taking them. You won't mean to become an addict. It'll just happen. You'll end up facing a battle with an opponent that's tougher than any pain you've experienced.
You'll find yourself in a desperate place. Homeless. Facing jail time. Disappointing the people you love. Disappointing yourself.
Eventually, friends in rehab will help you battle your way back to a normal life. You'll smile. You'll laugh. You'll think you've won. Friends and family will celebrate with you. They'll love having their boy back....the one with a smile as big as his heart.
In the midst of their celebrating, they'll fail to notice the drugs lurking in the shadows. Drugs don't like to lose, but none of them will know this. None of them will be prepared. Not even you.
You won't mean to die. It'll just happen. You'll reach out one last time, and tangle with an opponent that's tougher than your pain. In that terrible moment, the drugs will take away your breath and all of the wonderful things you had to share with the world. Your family and friends will be left hurting.
They'll cry and wish you had never turned to drugs to ease your pain.
Please, please, please....if you are hurting, don't numb your pain with drugs!
You are stronger than you think you are. You are going to get through this.